A Start to a Long Journey

As promised, I have another post.

Today I received my study score. I was honestly panicking when I logged in to see my result. I was scared that my two solid years of effort had gone down the drain and I was very surprised with my score. I was so relieved yet at the same time unsure if I should be disappointed or happy or I'm not even sure any more.

Often parents hold the highest expectations for you and that is certainly so in my case. So upon breaking the news to my father he replied, 'Is that supposed to be good?'

My mum wasn't sure how to respond either. She knew my score wasn't terrible, certainly not average, even 'high' after my raw score was scaled. She was at a loss for words. For once, she didn't know what to say.

I'm not disappointed with this mark- ecstatic actually. Knowing how badly I did in the exams, I'm very content with it.

But alas, this is only the start of an arduous journey toward my future career, a.k.a the VCE.
Next year is going to be one heck of a hard year. If I thought I was having it rough with just one advanced subject, imagine a year filled with five. It makes me cringe just thinking about it.

I have to admit, I'm not one for organization and time-management. If I was to win an award, I'd most definitely take the award for 'most unorganized, lazy student of all time'. It's sad to admit this, but it's only when you admit you have a problem, that you'll be able to find a solution.

On a side note, I have a newborn baby cousin named Annabelle Chloe Ly!
This beautiful child :')

Doomsday

If I survive tomorrow, I will have survived hell.

...

I'm not even sure how I'm supposed to react.
Tomorrow I will be receiving my study score for my Year 12 subject I completed in advance.

I feel I will be posting a lengthy, passionate, slightly-distressed post about life tomorrow. I can feel it.

To be honest I wasn't even feeling the least bit stressed until my good friend decided to message me this:

PATTY! I KNOW YOU GOTTA BE NERVOUS ABOUT TMR AND HAVE A HORRIBLE SLEEPLESS NIGHT. BUT STILL, I HOPE YOU DO TRY TO SLEEP. RELAX, BREATHE, DON'T THINK AND SLEEEEEEEP! TMR'S RESULT IS NOT A BIG DEAL, NOBODY WILL ASK YOU WHAT'S YOUR METHOD'S SCORE IN 10 YRS TIME (WELL, NOT EVEN 5 YRS..) YES, PARENT'S EXPECTATION AND PEERSSSS PRESSURE ARE GOTTA BE HARSH AND UNFAVOURABLE - TAKE IT EASY!!!! THEY AREN'T GOING TO REALLY KILL YOU OR MAKE YOU DIE SO DON'T PANIC TOO MUCH. HAVE A GOOD NIGHT REST. IM GOTTA SLEEP SOON AS WELL. NIGHTS xx

I just love this kid to bits and appreciate this consideration for my feelings. This message was so out of the blue too. The last time we messaged each other was about a month ago.

I'm feeling.. faint. I've been so chill up until now that I even signed up for my results to be texted to me 2 mins before the cut-off time. WOW.

Okay guys, I'll... just wish me the best of luck.

I gotta admit I feel really pissed though seeing as I put SO much effort into this subject and managed to badly screw up the 2 exams that would make or break my result.

Toodles. (what am I even saying-)